And another thing...I quit smoking...Again

It's still a big hairy deal, even if I have quit many times before--for years at a time. The sad thing about an addiction is that it's always there. At your weakest moment, even if it's been years, you can turn to it; and licketysplit, you're back to a pack a day.

So, rather than dwell on the negative, i'm trying to be positive here. I quit smoking again while I was in Florida. It was Monday, February 23, 2009; and my very nice exit coach, Eileen, (I was leaving the discovery portion of the Lifespring Training), talked me into it. The discovery deal was pretty amazing and certainly mind expanding. I'll have to blog on that in the future. Anyway, Eileen, convinced me I should just throw away my pack of cigarettes, and I did. Haven't had one since. It's a pretty amazing comentary on the discovery deal that quitting smoking was the absolutely EASIEST thing I could think of to do as a life changing event.

And it is a life changing event. I guess I smell better. I know I have more spare change in my pockets. I haven't seen my friends at the convenience store in weeks.

But I'd love to have a cigarette. It's just a freaking shame I can't smoke just one; or just one pack. And I don't want to get back into the vice of that addiction. It's such a pain to always have to have cigarettes, or plan to stop and get more before you run out. And it makes you smell--and it costs an absolute arm and a leg--and, there's that health stuff, too. It is nice that my throat isn't hurting.

I just wish I felt better; and that during moments when I'm pissed, I wouldn't REALLY want a cig. But those things won't change; so I'm not going to worry about them.

My mantra is, it's been almost three weeks; I'm over the physical addiction. This three weeks has probably been the EASIEST smoking cessation of them all; some have been real doozies (thanks again, Boca-chickie!). No reason on earth to give all this up for a smelly, expensive, cancer stick. I'll only have to go through it again, soI might as well stick with this one. And the urges haven't been all that bad (nobody's died; and that's always a good thing).

But back in the bad old days, I really liked smoking. Except for the stink, and the cost, and the pain, and inability to breathe.